for the HOLY GRAIL: Part 2
The image to
the left is an image I see quite often in my meditations and
dreamtime since returning from my Glastonbury
Initiation in August 1999. I call this the Double Chalice, or the
As Above/So Below Chalice. What I have learned about this
symbol is that there are two very precious centers within the
body that are like chalices where energy is created, stored and
where it overflows within us and to others as it fills. These
Divine receptacles within each of us are an important part of
understanding our individual and collective Quest for the Holy
are in the pelvic cavity of the body, specifically the womb of
a woman, and in the heart. They are intimately connected, and
energy between these chalices are flowing back and forth communicating
with each other all the time. All beings have a womb space, including
men. It is where we are an empty vessel for creative energies
to fill us and move us to be in the world and do in the world
in alignment with Divine Will.
For me the chalice
represents a receptivity,
which a woman naturally knows
how to do. From this space of receptivity, a woman listens,
watches, feels, and receives information. She receives
through all her senses and from her extra-sensory abilities.
She collects this information within her creative womb
chalice and then with her heart chalice, transforms the
energy. This energy
then overflows within, feeding herself via the
Emerald of the Vagus
and simultaneously, it spills out to all those she touches with
Her Self. This natural ability of a woman lies also within every
This is The Grail
Quest which All beings on the planet are now on, whether they
know it or not. It is an individual path and a collective path.
Individually, each of us is trying to balance the chaotic heartless
environments we are often in, the most important one being the
environment within ourselves. And collectively our Earth Mother
is reflecting this desire & need to balance, not only within
ourselves, but our use and misuse of the abundance of gifts she
gives and that we are dependent upon for our very existence.
Holy Grail Quest, August 17, 1999
the story of the Quest for the Holy Grail, Perceval is an innocent
fool, young and inexperienced, lost in a huge forest. He is searching
for the Holy Grail, but does not really understand what it is.
It is a longing to find something of value and meaning
in his life. What he does not know is that he is ripe
to learn, to rediscover that which he thinks he lost so long
ago. He is the child who searches for the promise of Spring and
living life with an open heart.
The Holy Grail
is in the castle of the Fisher King. The King is old and his
kingdom, which was once green and flourishing, now lays barren,
dried-up and dead. He has a wound in this thigh and it will not
heal. (the thigh represents our spiritual fire.) He is waiting
for someone to come and ask "the right question" about
the wound on his leg because it is He who shall receive the Holy
many years of searching, finds his way to the castle. But he
does not say anything to the King about the wound in his thigh,
because he has been taught it is not polite to speak of such
things and also because he is distracted with all the extravagant
food and offerings given to him by the King. And even though
the Grail was there in front of him all the time, he does not
recognize it. The following morning, he leaves the castle without
the Grail .
Years later after
more wanderings in the forest searching for the Grail, he comes
to the castle again, and this time he asks the King about the
wound in his thigh. Since Perceval has asked the "right
question", he is given the Holy Grail by the King. The Kingdom
is thus restored with lush green vegetation, trees and flowers,
and the Kingdom thrives with prosperity which the King lovingly
shares with All the people.
the Holy Grail only after offering awareness to the wound of
the Fisher King. The Grail was found inside
himself when Perceval opened his heart in compassion to the pain
and wound of another.
be able to recognize the pain and wound within another, we must
first be able to see it and love it within our self.
Through the Journey of the Heart,
which is the Quest for the Holy Grail, we face
our own darkness as we often roam lost in the forest of our lives...
but if we continue to search, one day, we can see our shadows,
accept them, and yes even love them.
essence of the
is within us All. It is the ability to love and accept others
because we have learned to love and accept all of our Self, both
light and dark. And the sacred chalice, the Holy Grail, is the
compassion and love overflowing as a result of our self-love
and self-acceptance. This compassion and love reside in the Double
Chalice of our womb and our heart.
So... at last,
the Holy Grail is found. In Truth, it has never been lost. It
has always been and always will be within each of us.
my journal, October 5, 1999
Seed of Renewal
Seed of Hope
Seed of Wisdom
Seed of Love